Dear diary,

        COMPLIMENTS OF THE SEASON! Is it not great we have entered into a new year 😉 I hope we all face it positively and achieve our goals. Guess it’s time to break the silence, I feel strong enough to now. I know it’s been such a long time! Since July 2010 to be precise. Well, mum has been in hospital since August and that might explain it. It was pretty tough and a lot for me to take in particularly in the first two months. I almost made a decision not to do my masters but she kept saying school. So, here I am juggling travelling to see my mum who is 5hrs away from me down south and doing a full time masters programme. It’s a lot of responsibility and growing up but when I look back I can say God prepared me to be a strong woman for a time like this. I was a bit freaked out on my welfare and what not but God has proved faithful so far.

          5 months on and I have been through a rollercoaster of emotions … sat down by her bedside speaking to her sometimes hoping she will hear me … crying on the hospital corridors and wiping the tears before I go back to stay and look positive by her side … I have begged her not to leave me here alone … Now I know how it must feel to lose one’s love because I have come close about 4times. In the end, I thank God for hearing my prayers and keeping her alive. My church, friends, and I still pray. I believe she will be healed. They tell me they have done all they can do for her medically and so will be making the decision to send her to a Nursing Home. Yet, I still keep holding on to my faith because I believe it will be well. It’s not all bleak, my business plan’s going well, I am enjoying my masters programme which is in MSc in Internationational Business and Management. I was made the course representative and then two weeks later elected by the other course reps to be the Post Graduate Representative for the entire School of Management. Lowest grade so far is a ‘B’ and all I can say is ‘thank you Lord’ because I do not know how am doing it. That was a summary of what’s been going on. On that note please stay strong and only focus on the positives (yes, there’s always positives even in what seems to be bad circumstances).

            I don’t apologise for one sentence of my story. It’s all me. I am living my life. LIVE YOUR LIFE! I remain your lady.

Kisses,

Lady P